I never thought eating would be so hard

So far I'm almost done with my third week of training. There's been a more than expected amount of slacking off, especially in the diet department. The weekends are the toughest because I'm usually out and about and even if I do have my food with me (which has been rare) I usually can't find a way to heat it up (microwaves are ever more rare on the beaches...). Admittedly I also haven't really been trying when I do go out to eat to order things that are pretty in line with my diet, so it's all out cheating, not even just a little bit.

When I do follow my diet, it's not strict. Some meals I only eat the protein, most breakfasts I skip the egg; by far the hardest meal to fulfill has been the post workout meal -- protein shake, karbolyn, protein, AND vegetables. It's the most daunting thing ever, and Jed keeps telling me it gets easier but to be honest it seems to be getting harder. I've dropped 3 lbs since starting training, my waist is coming through, but my body fat percentage is still about the same. I know I need to start eating better to get the best results but honestly, it's so freakin' HARD! I always thought I was a good eater...now I feel like I'm failing :(

On the plus side this week has been really good for training. My friend Ross has decided to accompany me to the gym most days, so I have an accountability buddy. If I know someone else is counting on me to go to the gym it's harder for me to come up with reasons why I should "put it off". I know, I know...I shouldn't have any reason since 1. I have a goal to compete and 2. I'm paying someone to help me get to that goal but it's almost like college was for me...haha. I paid my tuition and went to class about 60% of the time...

Starting next week or the week after I'm going to probably do two sessions a week with Jed. It's a lot easier, more fun, and I can get the feedback I feel I need when he's there watching me. I might wait until after the holidays to do that though because it's going to be a lot of money. I definitely have to start budgeting this stuff or I'm going to be in big trouble before the competition even gets close.

Anyway, I'm off to finish my steak...ugggghhhh!